It has been a while since my last post and that is because we have a new member in our family. Emma Faith was born on January 24Th. I know that was a while ago but like so many other things in our lives God wanted to teach us with Emma. Ever since Mikee was brought home 4 years ago Heidi and I prayed for the same thing every night. If/when we have another little one please God make her healthy. Emma was born and she was able to come home, she was healthy and beautiful. (And big 9lbs 8 oz!) We thought everything was perfect and then 2 days later we found ourselves in the one place we didn't want to be.....the hospital. Emma had RSV which is a respiratory infection that can be deadly for infants. Heidi and Emma spent the next 10 days in the hospital in isolation while Mikee and I were at home. Thank God she is home and everything is OK but this was an interesting situation for our family to say the least. The uncertainty which has been our life with Mikee wasn't there in this situation. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that Emma was going to be fine but I was so mad at God I can't even describe it. No matter how much faith is present in my walk with God I still find myself at times saying why? Why is Mikee suffering the way he is, why have I worked for 2 companies and they both closed down. WHY? If you know my family you know that there are many more things I can mention but this isn't a woe is me type of story. No matter what gets thrown at us one thing has never changed and that is the fact that we believe that God has a plan, and even though we may not like it we do know that He has our best in mind. With Emma this didn't change for me. I was mad because I felt like we were messed with. To me it was like God said "here you go, a healthy, beautiful baby girl. Take her home and start your new family." and then two days later He said "just kidding." She's home now and she is healthy, and through this God gave me direction. Everything went according to HIS plan not mine. I have to remind myself that even when things don't go as planned it doesn't mean they are going wrong. I guess the real trick now is to see how I listen.
